All or Nothing

I usually am a take-charge girl, find a solution and go with it. My hands must be in or out of the pot; you could say I am an all or nothing kinda girl. But recently, I’ve found myself to be the “nothing” kinda girl. I am watching myself evolve into giving answers like “wait and see” rather than “let’s make a plan immediately.” It sounds like I cannot commit I can just not instantly! For those of you who know me may find this absurd, and I would have to agree, but it is true. You don’t believe me? I am going on a cruise in less than 1 week and have not made one arrangement other than buying some clearance tank tops and a dress! I did not go and get my birth certificate, I don’t know how we paid for it, I didn’t even know what time we boarded until this afternoon!
I am a firm believer in self-fulfilling prophecy- you know, you are what others believe you are (basically, however, I am sure my brother-the communication expert may disagree☺). So, why is it that this is happening? If you find an answer, please let me know! I kind of like this Keri, a little less uptight and more carefree. I do have to admit my house is not as spotless and I can sleep with dishes in the sink at nights but I am having more fun! So forgive me if I haven’t schedule you in for a phone call or an email, but I am concentrating on enjoying life and laughing more!